On oversleeping, dieting and getting freebies

Today I woke up at 7:45 am realizing that my work starts at 7 am. I blamed my cellphone's alarm for not doing its part. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko na naman narinig ang nakapaligid sakin habang ako ay natutulog. Bakit ganun? Paminsan, feeling ko umaalis talaga ako ng conscious level pag natutulog ako. Sooobrang wala akong nafifeel. Kahit nagearth quake na habang tulog ako, or bumabagyo, or nagbrown out, or nagvivideoke ang kapitbahay, or nag-away na sila dahil parehong pangit ang boses nila.

Anyway, I called up work to say that I was already on my way to work.. around 8:05 nag-aabang na ako ng bus. Around 8:50 hindi pa din ako nakakasakay!! Mas matagal pa ung ligo, bihis, patuyo ng hair, ayos ng bag, ayos ng bed at pag patay ng lahat ng ilaw at paghila ng electric fan sa saksakan kaysa sa pag-aabang ng masasakyan. Well, pwede naman siguro talagang mak.. kung ipipilit mo ang sarili mo kaya lang parang nakasabit ka nalang sa nakasabit na tao sa bus so I felt na dalawa lang ang choice ko, to be super late for work.. or mamatay ako or worse, magalusan ng sobra sobra sa pagkakahulog sa bus!! (worse talaga?? hehehe)

Pag dating ko sa work, eto ang nakita ko sa workstation ko.


Sobrang kulit ng boss ko. Nagsorry ako at maniniwala na sanang galit talaga siya kung hindi lang ang pangit ng sulat niya. Pano mo naman seseryosohin diba? Joke lang serrr! :)


So anyway, I'm trying to go on a diet now. TRYING. Hirap e. Kasi kausap ko ung pinsan ko the other day:

Aimee: Ate ja, ang taba ko na ngayon, tumaba ako no?
Ate Jaja: OO, tumaba ka. Ang laki kaya ng tinaba mo. Ano bang nangyari sayo at tumaba ka ulit eh dati pumayat ka na tapos ang taba mo na naman!

Aimee: (TULALA Mode)

Well, ganun talaga pag opinionated ang buong pamilya mo. Medyo masasanay ka na. Pero after two days, eto I'm still determined to lose weight. Hay.. so kahit na hindi ako masyado makakain ngayon, ang dami naman nagpapasama sakin kumain sa pantry, bibili ng food (PURE TORTURE). So eto naman ang masokista in me, sama lang ng sama. Buti nalang talaga malayo layo ang Dairy Queen dito sa office. Nakakainis. I was trying to dispel the law of diminishing marginal return by eating more and more of it.. baka pagsawaan ko kahit papano? I've tried to make this post a number of times kaya lang whenever I go to DQ's website nakikita ko tong mga to:

Nakakadistract naman talaga diba?

On my way out of the office, may pumasok na isang guy.

Guy: Excuse me, andito ba si Miss I-mih? (Bisaya version of my name)
Aimee: Ako yun! Baket?
Guy: Aah I'm from Colgate po Maam. (sabay labas ng isang wrapped gift at bigay sakin)
Officemates: (sabay-sabay) WOoooooOoooW!!
Aimee: Yey! I have a gift?
Officemate: Bakit?

Bakit nga ba? Well to sum up everything, ung binili namin na colgate toothpaste sa cheapetiks na grocery sa amin sa Cavite may termites (anay) ung loob ng kahon and medyo nakarating na siya sa tube mismo. Although, hindi naman ata pumasok sa toothpaste, nakakadiri pa din siya. Meron pang gumapang sakin na termites. I reported it dun sa number sa box nila yesterday ang ngayon nga I got surprised by this guy from Colgate.

Opened na ung package kasi na-excite masyado ung officemates ko binuksan na nila.


The Letter (click to read)


Surprise!!!


The Package

For someone who lives for freebies and goodies, siyempre ang saya ko no! It didn't matter na nahingi na ng officemates ko ung iba. Tinirhan ko nalang ung mom ko tutal ninakaw ko lang naman sa house ung original na Colgate ko. Hehe.

Here are a few random things that I've learned

1. Nakakataba talaga ang DQ (Dairy Queen).

Kahit na hindi ka pa maglunch at dinner para you could compensate for eating a 9oz. size Blizzard. (take note: thats the smallest pa!) Tataba at tataba ka pa din talaga. Kahit anong flavor yan. Mudpie, Rocky Road, Choco Almond, Brownie Temptation, M&M, lalo na pag nagcombo combo ka pa ng toppings! :P

2. 8:00-9:00am ang totoong RUSH HOUR sa umaga.

3. Quality service here in the Philippines still exists, you just need to exert your right for product and service quality. Thank you Colgate-Palmolive.


P.S. Muntik na akong mag-apply sa inyo before, di ko lang alam kung pano. :)
P.P.S Sana dinagdagan niyo na ng Palmolive shampoo! Joke. :)

4. Paminsan, dumadating and work pag uwing-uwi ka na from the office.

Random Conversations with my friend

I don't know why.. every conversation I have with my friend seems to end up with nonsense. I was talking with my friend Tera via text yesterday as she was sad. This is how our conversation ended up with:

Tera: Sana Stuff toy nalang ako para wala nalang akong nararamdaman.
Aimee: Don't think too much, the sooner you accept it, the sooner you can move on. Ay wait, kung stuff ako, gusto ko bear ako na light brown o giraffe.
Tera: Ako baby doll yung may nappy and namimilk, naliligo etc.
Aimee: Wala ngang feelings, high maintenance naman. Sinusubuan pa un ng bilog bilog na parang gun pellets e.
Tera: Oo tapos magpupu pa, may crib, high chair and car seat pa nga yun eh..
Aimee: Hayup ka! Ginawa mong kumakain lang ng alikabok ung stuff ko!
Tera: Bwahaha! Benta pucha naman kasing pangarap giraffe, girl pinapanalo lang yun sa perya.
Aimee: Eee! Di pa ako nakakakita ng totoong giraffe e. Type ko magkaron ng hug shot with a giraffe.

Compare this

to this..

What you think?

Then I saw this pic and realized, alaga lang nung stuff toy ni Tera ung version ko. Tsk tsk! Nahawa na ng kalandian, pink na ung kulay ng bear.

Conversation when on..

Aimee: Pwede nadin koala bear. Ang ganda talaga ni Kc C. pero di na kami magkamukha nagpagupit nako short tsaka nagparebond. Girl.... Si Mega na ata kamukha ko.
Tera: Hahaha! Dapat mag off shoulder ka ng blouse ang black slacks. Goodluck Girl!

Twins? Waaah!

the evolution of my hair in 6 months..

It will be probably amazing to some people how I was able to change hairstyles at least once a month. I started with super long (boring) hair, my bangs started to grow and the only style I could do is put pins on my bangs to get it off my face.

My super long straight hair. (around Feb)

Got bored and chooped the bangs off for full bangs (May)

Full bangs grew and turned to side swept bangs and had soft curls. (July)

Had it chopped shoulder length, maintained the bangs. (July)

This is how it looks when it is blow dried or ironed. (July)

Had it rebonded again and settled for full bangs once again. (August)

I look like a sixth grader excited to go on a field trip on my last pic. Hehe. I realized looking at the months that I just pick on my hair so much within the last three months.

I'm sad

"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome

Out of boredom and nothing good to say...

Your Birthdate: October 28

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Emoticon is Sad

You're feeling a tad depressed right now. It will likely pass soon, but for now, you need some major cheering up!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

You Are an "It Girl"

You're outgoing, friendly, and charismatic. You are aware of your image, and you are constantly improving yourself. You're definitely the type of girl people love to be around!

Are You An "It Girl"?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You're Not a Maneater

You like men, and you respect whoever you happen to be with. Whether it's a fling or a boyfriend, you try to be honest and upstanding. Of course, you've probably broken a few hearts in your time. The difference with you is that you didn't mean to!

Are You a Maneater?

saengil chukha hamnida Minwoo Oppa!

My favorite Shinhwa member is celebrating his 29th birthday! Almost ready to settle down! :P He's enlisting in the army later this year. Although he's still busy with fan meetings and Asian countries visits, I still miss him so much. :( I miss all of Shinhwa's members. Although, some of them are active in tv, seeing them together goofing around and making fun of each other is something I always look forward to seeing. Waah!

Once again, Saengil Chukha Hamnida Minwoo Oppa! Saranghe! :)

The World will not adjust itself for you

I am starting yet another work again.. well a first for this year after leaving my previous company mid Feb.. exactly Feb 15, one day after Valentines. After 2 months of Bum Nation and more than a hundred Shinhwa (A Korean group that I like) videos in youtube, I finally decided that I would need to spend some time outside the house while waiting for the subbing teams/ people to add more videos. :P Well, this is my 4th week at work and I can still blatantly say that I still have boring and tulala lang moments in the office. Precisely the main reason for this entry. I just hate the fact that I work fast and that I want to finish all the work that comes in my way.. I’m so intense it scares me. I made a mistake of sending an email to the wrong person last week and although my team mates are shrugging it off, I still can’t quite fully accept it. Even with the fact that I am half clueless as to what I am doing. Although, I am thankful that I have work… even if its not my dream job 4 years ago. I was afraid I would end up saying it, but here goes.. work life is nothing like you’d expect it to be. Even if I have the ability to be optimistic, it still gets lonely as you ask yourself, did I spend more than half of my life preparing for this?? I mean, there is nothing to hate about my current job. Its actually considered a blessing as I was spending the last two months as a scavenger in my own home.

But lets face it, quarter life crisis strikes you almost nonstop until you reach that point of stability and you can finally say, “Well things are chaging for the better!” But until that time, the next five to ten years of your life after college is such a torment as one tries to decipher whether you are actually making the right choices. I feel like I have been swimming in clear water all my life, and then suddenly I was thrown out to the saltiest and biggest sea. It gets blurry, It gets foggy. It just gets so damn disappointing.

They say it’s a good thing, not to be satisfied with what you have, and continue pursuing what is in store out there. There just seems to be a lot. But you go home at night.. and you look around.. there is nothing much to see. Shucks I sound like lyrics to a song. Baduy.

I have a friend who texted me a very very long text.. 5 pages ata.. pseudo-ranting about feelings with work, family, relationships.. almost all aspects of her life. And then continues to say that she specifically texted me because she knows I would understand and know about it. This is a friend who I haven’t seen for two years now. Ironically… I did understand the point where she’s at. But I wasn’t much of help though, coz I cant even do much with my own life. I don’t think anybody could do anything concrete to this particular stage in his/her life other than that changing one’s perspective to work in favor of you.

(edited again) I started this entry about a week ago, but I still couldn’t bring myself to finish it. Until I had a dream last Sunday. I couldn’t quite remember all the details but I remember the feeling I had when I woke up. I suddenly realized that I am sad. Not depressed. Not melancholy. Just plain sad. I have been very optimistic since this year has started. But.. nothing seems to feel right. Nothing seems to come up right. I don’t know why.



But now, I am almost on my third month in my new work and I have almost learned all the procedures we need to do on a daily basis. I work as Data Analyst in a company named RiskMetrics Group. My job is as redundant as redundant can be. But I am not complaining. I need the money to be able to eat, buy some clothes and be able to watch some movies. Money is so hard to grab on these days.

I had a lot of expectations when I was still studying.. I just recently started to slow down and adjusted my goals, I need to adapt to what life is giving me.


In other news, I saw this random quote in iGoogle and all I could do was agree.

Love is a state of mimd". Francis Ceniza

And that basically sums up my love life. :P

I have a very talented friend who allowed me to use his creation, just look at my banner and meet Tedd. :) For more of his characters, visit www.johnnyjeffrey.com Thanks Jay!

People disappoint

I have been feeling so alone since last week.

Like I don't have anyone I could count on.
Like I don't have anyone I could call when I am sad.
Like I don't have anyone I could just spend some time with, go to a movie and just talk to and feel better.
Like I don't have anyone who would understand me even if I don't say anything.

I just really felt so alone. For someone who never had a special someone and who has been so proud to be independent and self-sufficient, this is a big deal. Because I rely mostly with my friends or family for the "support" that I need at these times. But with all the things that have been and have been not happening... I just feel so disappointed.

I feel so disappointed because when I scroll down my phone's contact list, there is nobody I could text or call that I know would genuinely make me feel better.

I feel so sad because the only person that could and would understand me perfectly is studying and working somewhere tens of thousand miles away from me.

I feel disappointed even with myself for being contented with the work I am currently doing even if I know deep in my heart that I could do so much better.

I feel frustrated that I am easily angry with people for small things ---> for laughing so high pitched, for talking so loud and even just for laughing.

I am confused because I realized that there is no possible way that I could ever co-exist with my mom in the same house for more than 3 days.



I realized that I am an angry person I blamed it to my hormones for the longest time.

I even have pseudo fights with different friends and for some reason I just can't explain why I feel this way. I call it pseudo fights because there is no exact reason or time that I can say I had some misunderstanding or arguments with my friends, its just for some reason, I withdraw from them. My usual reaction with my closest friends is to be actively mad or angry when I am feeling that way. I am not one to hide it. So right now, I just I am just indifferent and this scares me a lot.

To not feel anything at all with the current situation of my life is confusing and frustrating. I just wish I know what I should feel.

Maybe I just need a distraction from all of this.

Hay.

Officially my inaanak!